Dearest Dad's Demise...

My dad passed away yesterday afternoon in a foreign land, Vietnam while he was working there.

My family and I will be flying over there today, to settle everything there.

Though I did not tell him this, I know he knows that in my heart, I missed and loved him very much. How I wished that he is back with us every festive season etc.

Again, this is all so dramatic, like a scene out from those cheesy, old Channel 8 drama serials.

人死异乡is not what a typical Chinese hopes.

Imagine you are already a foreigner in a strange land with strange language and strange people.

I would be very scared to be alone in a foreign place, lest to pass away there without a single kin by his side.

Thankfully, he had had great Singaporean friends who were with him throughout his stay in the hospital those few days.

But I do hope that Dad will rest in peace and rest assure that we will be bringing him back, soon.

Dad, I will take care of myself and our family and please forgive us for not being there with you at your very last breath.


I love you forever in my heart,

little miss sacred

Why Me again ???

News of my dad in the ICU in Ho Chi Minh City made me stumble.

I was like... why me ? Why us ? Why my loved ones again ?

Apparently, one of his ex-business associates who is also working there but returned to Singapore 2 weeks ago, contacted my family and informed us about this, today.

I had not told my Mum about this as she is currently away and had left her handphone at home.
But I would have to tell her this evening when she returns.

In fact, I am scared to tell her.

At first, I have had doubts about the man who left a note outside my home, telling us that my dad is in ICU now and that his condition is critical. He also left behind his hp number.

When I contacted this man, I expressed my doubts but he assured me that this is not a prank and I can call my dad's ex-boss to clarify. He also provided me with my dad's hp number in Singapore to confirm his identity. He claimed that while my dad's in a coma (he had had a stroke according to that man), they found his I/C and thus, managed to locate his address back in Singapore. My dad had apparently left his ex company and started his own business in HCM City.

That man said he will make the necessary arrangements for my family to come over to HCM City ASAP and stuff like that. I told him I will get my Mum to call him later when she returns.

Right now, my mind is in a great mess and my Mum's not back yet !

What should I do ?

At this juncture, I wished that he is just beside me, just when I needed him...

He ever promised to go to HCM City to look for my dad when he is still alive and ailing in the hospital....that is when he recovers.

And this remains a promise unfulfilled.


From a sad
little miss sacred

The Pact

Due to a major disagreement between my client and management, I was allowed to leave close to 2 weeks before my actual last day from work.

How relieved I was !

Waking up early every work day morning is never a breeze when one is working in an office like mine. No motivation, no nothing....

Fortunately for me, I get to rest or laze around 15 days prior my new job's conmencement.

Suddenly, plans of venturing overseas came to my mind in the office when news of my 2 week's notice was announced.

Should I go to Indonesia eg Batam (for cheap shopping, SPAs, hair treatments), Medan (as I have a friend staying there) ?
No, it is too chaotic and got nothing much there also.

Should I go to Malaysia ?
No, it is even more chaotic and dangerous than Indonesia with all those robberies and crimes popping out recently in the newspapers and many more going unreported.

Should I go to Hong Kong ?
Yes and No. Yes, coz of the Annual Summer Sales and No, coz I will become dead broke when I return ! Surely ! Better not. Besides, none of my friends and family wanna go with me; all are busy working :(

Maybe I shall go JB, MY instead lah.

Just for some cheap shopping and eating....

See, I am a good girl, I wanna save money :)

Or, to save even more, I might as well spend my 2 weeks at home, catching up on beauty sleep or going out with friends and family members ?

Great idea !

Counting down to My Last Day at work

Thou counting down now...

23 more days to leaving my current office...

27 more days to joining my new office...

But I beri the sian leh...

Still have to serve 23 days of notice at my current office...

Should I chao keng MC ?


*chao keng : pretend

*MC : Medical Leave

Love Letter & New Job

Yippee !

I have already passed the "love" letter to my superior and asked her to pass it to my Manager.

The ultimate "love" letter that I will not take back.

I have already handed in my letter of resignation.

The letter of no return.

I have received a call from my new lady boss.

I was to start work in 1 month's time after serving my notice in my current company.

Hopefully, I will get a headstart in life in a new environment.

It is somehow my dream job with opportunities to travel.

And although it is a small firm with over 40 years of operations, it is located in a bustling city area.

Cool.

Furthermore, I also have a good pal working nearby and it will be easier to meet friends in town.

Hurray !


Cheers,
little miss sacred

Hatha Yoga Anyone ??

Cheap elementary Hatha Yoga classes for SGD 33.30.

Dirt cheap right ?

Once a week, an hour per lesson, 10 sessions altogether.

I am going to sign up for the July classes at my neighbourhood Community Centre soon.

Truly a time to stretch up and tone up !


From a lazy little miss sacred

Friends That Come & Go

Everybody has friends. Friends that you make in school, friends you come across at work or even that friendly neighbour who chats with you regularly.

My share of good friends began when I was in Primary 4 and I still sms my Primary 4 good friend occasionally these days.

But seriously, my oldest and bestest friends are from my Secondary 1 and 3 classes.

I guess time can be used to put your friendship with a certain person to the test.

Most people experiencing quarter-life crisises may have their share of hi-bye friends, long-lost friends, friends who have shared part of their lives but "disappeared" after that somehow.

I have a best friend in Primary 5-6 but we both lost touch with each other after Secondary 2.

One of my Secondary 1 buddies rather spend most of (in fact, all of) her time with her fiance and family than with her "friends" right now, in this part of her life. I felt that I have lost this friend somehow.

Then, in the office, I lost 2 colleagues after 1 of them resigned.

However, this is not the major part of why I had lost her friendship.

The reason I lost these 2 "friends" is coz of something that isn't the most important thing in the world but yet, is something we can't possibly live without --money.

She owe me money but had problems paying.

I chased her for the money and things turned sour after that.

It is wrong for me to get back my own money when I need it ?

Then, is it even more wrong when I refused to lend money to some colleague just because that bugger asked me to ?

When had I become a "money-lender" ?

If I were rich, I wouldn't mind, but I am not !

Then, there is this girl who is just an acquaintance I got to know from someone less than a year ago.

At first she seemed to be someone I could bare my heart out to with my sorrows. She even asked for my msn contact and chatted there with me whenever she is online. We became fast online friends. I have only seen her in real life once; at our mutual friend's funeral.

Never would I know that the msn also became the "place" where our fast friendship ended.
All becoz of some glitches in the stoopit msn which caused all her office PCs to be invaded by some viruses. In the end, she had to reformat ALL those PCs in the office ! All becoz of the viruses sent out by msn from my PC !

She became offline after a long time after that incident, even at home. Or perhaps she had blocked me, not wanting to be part of my life ever again. These days, I see her online but never did she msg me like last time, greeting me with simple but sweet "Have you eaten?'s or "Wanna play some online games tog?"s

But I am lucky in the sense that I still have my bestest friends with me from my Secondary School days even though we have had our share of quarrels and cold wars.

Time can indeed worth our friendships' worth.



Is-there-such-a-thing-called-friends-forever? ,

little miss sacred

Jobs & Love Opportunities

Aren't they both the same ?

Given that true love (or that once in a life time life-long career that one desires) knocks on one's door only once, we gotta grab whatever (few) job interviews (or love chances) that comes our way.

To me, whatever suitable job(s) or love candidates are deemed to be either a success or failure, so if we dun go for it, we'll never know right ?

I have been going for a few interviews but none are up to my expectations. The pay is either below my current salary or the working hours are too long. However, I had gained some exposure through those interviews.

It's the same as going for some casual dates with the opposite sex.

After all, the girl gains some dating experience all over again, especially if a long-term relationship has just ended for her not too long ago and she gets to be treated like a princess all over again, but by a different guy. The 1st date is a make or break kinda thing. It's either you like him or you hate him.

At times, such dates dun lead to anything. Most end up in a hi-bye manner.

It's so similar to those few job interviews one goes for. It's either the interviewer wants to hire you or doesn't.

Sigh....

This is life.....

Those momentary pleasures dun last. Eg, those free dinners and gentleman mannerism come and go fast.

Life still goes on without the perfect job / man :(


Sad life,

little miss sacred

O $ P $

Dun you just hate it when someone who readily promises to return $ to you when they got the $ from you on credit but never seem to return ?

Even when you repeatedly hound them for the $ ?

Being the lender, it looks like it is even more "difficult" to open my mouth to get back the seemingly small sum the borrower claimed.

With that "small sum", had I not lent that idiot on credit, I could have either used it to pay for :

1) my handphone bill, or
2) my lunches for a week, or
3) buy some groceries for my family, or
4) save it up in the bank for some interest, or
5) use it for something better instead of lending it to some loafer scumbag !

No wonder people say 谈钱伤感情，一点都没错！

But if I were rich enuff to be a money lender, I wouldn't have mind. But, I am NOT !

And now I felt like I am some foolish 凯子 !

Also, when you have lend friends that favourite CD or DVD of yours and they never seem to wanna return !

Another good lesson learnt in life.



Simply pissed off,

miss little sacred

Fitness-Gym-Yoga Membership ?

We have decided that in the end, NOT to sign up for the lure of the one-year fitness-cum-gym-yoga lessons' membership from the yet to be opened fitness centre in town.

It costs SGD69 per month. It may seem inexpensive for a starter but ... there is still an admin charge of SGD98 to be paid upfront !

We have worked it out and the total cost for this compulsary one-year-fitness plan would come up to a increasingly shocking SGD926 ! Close to a thousand Singapore dollars !

Expensive, ex, ex !

My friend then claimed that another friend of hers told her that he/she had once signed up for the same fitness centre at the cost of SGD1200, but it is for 3 full years ! Worked out to be less than SGD35 a month !

Compare and contrast and see the (vast) difference !

I think we have to hunt for a cheaper centre or just settle for the good old FOC (free-of-charge) jogging track for some jogging instead ! Or some cheap places that offer some good yoga classes.

I desperately need to have a good workout soon or I will turn into a incurable couch potato in no time with my current idle life style !

Who says women are brainless when it comes to the dollars and cents / sense ? :)


Feeling smart but unhealthy,
miss little sacred

Lower Pay

Sometimes, the best things in life are not that great after all !

Because the greatest things in life do not belong to me !

I went for the interview after work today.

As luck would have it, I was being interviewed by the same manager who interviewed me somewhere in late March or April this year for another position in the same company.

When she first stepped into the meeting room where I was, she seemed a little shocked and asked me whether had she interviewed me before.

I said yes.

And she managed a little smile.

Almost immediately, she came straight towards the point, to the job and the pay and lamented that she cannot afford to pay me my expected salary.

But she did enquire whether I am interested in another position that pays almost the same pay as my current one. The other job with the lower pay might require me to travel !! Seems interesting ! But the monthly pay is pathetic. And still have to don a uniform ! I guess I can't have both cakes and eat them together ! (What an idiom !)

Anyway, I am not even sure I might get the job or not.

My current job seems better now. The higher pay, more relaxed job (but I guess it is because I have gotten used to my job already, so I have gotten to the lax mode), equally good staff benefits though they dun seem many.

The minus points are : 1) the environment sux big time, the work I do every day is a day-to-day, same old routine and kinda boring thingy, 2) my office is full of married and mature staff, hence we dun really have the same wave length 3) I desperately need to get away from this office to escape from the crutches of my mad lady boss who thinks she is Empress Dowager ! We, the small fries, suffer in silence , under her skirt most of the time :( 4) I dun think I will get any chances up the corporate ladder in this company lah, cos I dun do anything extra to boost my career here, that's what my mad lady boss said. Why should I when I am not even interested in this job and her too, in the 1st place ?

Anyway, I am just so dejected after all this fruitless interview espiode. It is either the pay is too low or they need people to start work immediately. Perhaps they dun like me? Or they found someone prettier and better ?

Only Heaven knows.

Never mind lah. Just let me strike Toto 1st prize will do.


From a poor, mentally-exhausted & weary
miss little sacred

Job Interview

Ha !

Received a call from ABC Co who asked whether I am interested to go for a job interview tomorrow or Friday.

Of coz I am !

I saw the job advertisement in the papers on Saturday and sent my resume with my cute pic.

2 days later, I got a call for the date tomorrow !

My stupid supervisor almost didn't approve my time-off tomorrow !

Luckily, he agreed in the end.

If not, how can I make it for the interview ??

Wish me good luck !


Cheers,
miss little sacred