So Sorry, my darling...

Yesterday, I was still talking and choosing the perfect date for our ROM and today, we are quarrelling. All my fault actually. I was crazy... too stressed and upset about "passers-by" at this point in my life. I should not be that overly-concerned with those miscellanous crap in my life.


I was at one of the lowest points of my life this year. I am currently taking 3 modules and working full-time at a place I called my office for the past 3 years. Work life is okay but it wasn't a place I can expect to move up in my career. I wasn't satisfied with this unfair treatment in my life. But I have to be patient and wait for the right time to leave this company. Ok, fine.


Doing one of the most challenging modules in my Degree course is also an uphill task for me. But temper and impatience got the better of me....and there is goes! Shit.... and some things that should not have been said had been said ... and undone it became.


In the end, the boyfriend became my punching bag. I am so sorry....

The ones who love you usually became the ones whom got to take all the shit and scoldings. Crap and nonsense. Shoutings and screamings. Because they are the only ones who can accept and tolerate the ones they love. Sorry. I am so sorry. I never mean to shout and scold u. Never. No matter what, please do not doubt my love for u. Without you, there would be no me. No more the one that I am today. A better person than before. Except for the occasional nonsense from me....sometimes.

Please dun be angry with me again okie, darling ? I know you are also tired and stressed with your work and upcoming tests too. I promise to be your only and loving baby forever. Nothing matters more than you being by my side, loving, caring, tolerating and understanding me.