Lonely Night

Suddenly tonite I feel sad and alone.

My maternal grandma rang me up twice on Sunday morning (Mother's Day) for me to join our extented family at her residence for a steamboat lunch-cum-dinner.

Not that I dun like or love her. Or hate her.

Actually I had wanted to take pics of her using my digicam, buy her a cake and give her some money just to make her happy but I simply can't do it.

Also, seeing my aunts, uncles and cousins without much to confide in doesn't make much sense to go there to waste my time right ?

I went there anyway and spent most of my afternoon in Grandma's place reading newspapers and basically entertained myself while the rest played mahjong and slept.

It's amazing how close we can be as kids with cousins or best friends in school but how drastic we change in a wink of an eye.

Never before did I feel so lonely in my life.

I am trapped in a vicious cycle.

Those rich, highly educated and pretty ones are never so lonely and alone.

Why hasn't my handsome prince come to rescue me from my loneliness and misery ?

I know it is no use moping about this here but who can really understand my pain ?

I really hope God can take me anytime !

I really detest my deceased loved ones for forsaking me and giving me so much misery now !

And those who talk only but no action ! Said want to meet me or can count on them anytime I need them. There is no forever in this world ! Friends can leave you, bf can die, father can die and leave you all by yourself......

Crap ! I am crapping again !!!