Not going to wait for him no more
Classes are starting tomorrow and it will be a new location to begin our classes in. It is a refreshing change. I am so sick of the old school location even though it is nearer to my home and at a more centralised area.
I am now listening to "Every Breath You Take" by Fujita Emi. This is a very beautiful sentimental song which is also one of the sub theme songs from the Dreams Link drama series. Every time I listen to any of these theme songs, I felt so overwhelmed and emotional. The songs revealed the feelings of that of the role that the lead actor Alex Fong feel for the lead actress Zhang Jiani. The selfless love that he had for her is too much for any girl to bear. I like this actor. Not only he possess a mature and charming demeanor, he is easy on the eye as well. Cool. Suave. God!
Before I start digressing any further, all I wanna write out here is that of how I had been feeling for the past few weeks. I think I have had enough of this waiting game. I am mentally tired and exhausted of pining for him to make the first move. I am really sick of it.
He is my Secondary classmate and we have always been good friends, especially after our O Levels, during our Poly days and after graduating from Poly. We used to go out in a group with the rest of our classmates and a mutual friend of ours.
Then, shortly after, I had a boyfriend who wooed me and won my heart there after. Both of them did not like each other and it was quite obvious when both met. Unknowingly, our conversations and movie outings halted and we stopped meeting up for while. We still see each other once in a while but never just the two of us anymore. It was always with mutual friends coz my then bf did not like it.
After a few years of bliss as well as quarrels, tragedy stuck and cancer took the bf away. I was devastated coz I had always been rather attached to my ex bf who had always been there for me despite my temper and wilful character then. All of a sudden, I was alone, facing everything by myself. Less than 7 months later, my beloved father died too. The demise of a parent and another loved one was really too much for me to bear but I moved on, despite crying almost every single night in bed, thinking of whether it was that of my fault that caused my loved ones to leave me one by one.
My old time gf and he had always been there for me all this while. Not exactly him during these trying times in my life, as he had a life of his own too, in university.
Come 2006 to mid February 2008, we were back together as close friends again. Until recently, he disappeared without a trace.
I am just so fedup. Maybe he is not the guy for me. Every girl deserves to be treated better than this and to be treated like a princess by the man she likes or the guy who likes her, isn't it??
I am now listening to "Every Breath You Take" by Fujita Emi. This is a very beautiful sentimental song which is also one of the sub theme songs from the Dreams Link drama series. Every time I listen to any of these theme songs, I felt so overwhelmed and emotional. The songs revealed the feelings of that of the role that the lead actor Alex Fong feel for the lead actress Zhang Jiani. The selfless love that he had for her is too much for any girl to bear. I like this actor. Not only he possess a mature and charming demeanor, he is easy on the eye as well. Cool. Suave. God!
Before I start digressing any further, all I wanna write out here is that of how I had been feeling for the past few weeks. I think I have had enough of this waiting game. I am mentally tired and exhausted of pining for him to make the first move. I am really sick of it.
He is my Secondary classmate and we have always been good friends, especially after our O Levels, during our Poly days and after graduating from Poly. We used to go out in a group with the rest of our classmates and a mutual friend of ours.
Then, shortly after, I had a boyfriend who wooed me and won my heart there after. Both of them did not like each other and it was quite obvious when both met. Unknowingly, our conversations and movie outings halted and we stopped meeting up for while. We still see each other once in a while but never just the two of us anymore. It was always with mutual friends coz my then bf did not like it.
After a few years of bliss as well as quarrels, tragedy stuck and cancer took the bf away. I was devastated coz I had always been rather attached to my ex bf who had always been there for me despite my temper and wilful character then. All of a sudden, I was alone, facing everything by myself. Less than 7 months later, my beloved father died too. The demise of a parent and another loved one was really too much for me to bear but I moved on, despite crying almost every single night in bed, thinking of whether it was that of my fault that caused my loved ones to leave me one by one.
My old time gf and he had always been there for me all this while. Not exactly him during these trying times in my life, as he had a life of his own too, in university.
Come 2006 to mid February 2008, we were back together as close friends again. Until recently, he disappeared without a trace.
I am just so fedup. Maybe he is not the guy for me. Every girl deserves to be treated better than this and to be treated like a princess by the man she likes or the guy who likes her, isn't it??
posted by lonelychinesegal at
3/10/2008 10:53:00 PM
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