Reflecting Back

Things are looking up, at least to me, though not very much. I am just trying my very best to love myself more.

I am going out a bit more often, doing things I always wanted to do but didn't have the chance to do so before, exposing to more things and widening my perspectives etc...

Woke up at 45 minutes past nine this morning to go K-Box singing-cum-lunch with R. The bill came up to only SGD12.48 for 2 of us ! One of the cheapest KTV sessions I had ever been to ! And I felt happier and destressed after singing most of my "troubles" away :)

I really wanted to meet up with my friends, especially the closer ones who had seen the worst and best in my life :)

Hope to be a much more positive person, eg talking and meeting people, friends and family members who love me for who I am and who cares for me and acting non-chalantly to those who dun even bother about me or what so ever.

I wanna grow my hair long, much longer coz I just realised that long hair makes even the most plainest girl attractive. Just ask any male friends you have and chances are, 8 out of ten will comment that they would prefer girls with l-o-n-g hair !! Very superficial but the world works in this way, sad to say. Gals with long, flowing hair are deem more feminine and gentle but those with short hair are so-called more toyboyish :( Unfair right !!

My friends say I think too much, way too much.

I do admit I must be crazy when people (including my relatives, old schoolmates, old classmates, colleagues & friends) asked for my marital status then.

"Widowed" was my answer !!!

Siao right ??

And some of them actually believed it coz most (of my friends, old classmates and colleagues) expected me to get hitched around that period. Bleah...

To further fool those who actually believed me on the above lie, I added that I was now a widowed mother with a daughter !!

Ha !

I will then burst out laughing, saying that my daughter is actually my ex's dog lah.

I love her very, very much. She is just like a daughter to me.

But, alas, I have not seen her since CNY more than 1.5 months ago. I miss cuddling, fussing over her and taking pictures of her. Only her. My beloved baby. Her picture is always in my handphone screen. Everyone who saw my mobile screen said that she is sooooo cuteeee and whether she is my pet. I told the not so close ones, she is my dog. The closer ones, including some of my relatives and old friends, knew that she is partially my dog, I found her but she does not stay with me. What a complicated relationship, even with the dog ! My late bloke even complained that I seemed to love and treated her better than him at times !

I miss the dog, she's mine !

She's the only dog who don't dare to bite me, dun bark at me, dun bully me, loves me, lick me (I dun like it coz she is a little smelly and her breath stinks !! hehe) and is always very happy when she sees me, even after periods of absence from her sight.

Awwwww........ being such a sweet & adorable doggie, how can I forget her right ???

Will my future bf get jealous of this dog ??

Hopefully not !!